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brytfutrinsaylz @ 2004-11-14T21:10:00

2004-11-15T05:12:46Z

hey all. i have a new lj name. it is "jackheartsally". please add me! thanks!
-jessie

brytfutrinsaylz @ 2004-09-21T21:20:00

2004-09-22T04:26:34Z

wow. i really don't get anything. i really don't. jack and sally has nothing to do with some people. it has to do with a friend of mine. i just don't get it. first, you tell me all this shit, and then you show up at my volleyball game and hang out with me after the game. what the hell. i really don't get it. i am not fake. i really don't need this. oh, by the way, Annie, we need to talk. we really do. but back to what i was saying. fuck you. really, fuck you. make up your mind. i am trying to be a friend and under the situation, it's not easy. i'm sick of trying with you. i know that i'm good so fuck you. i'm not going to let it bug me anymore. i'm really not. you wanna talk, fine. you wanna try to be cool with me, fine. but it's up to you becuase i am sick of trying to get into your good graces. i don't need to do this anymore. i am who i am and if you don't like it, tough. i have changed, you just choose not to see it. yeah, i am hurt by what you said. anyone would be when you say shit like that, but i'm not dealing with it anymore.

-jessie

brytfutrinsaylz @ 2004-08-25T21:02:00

2004-08-26T04:03:57Z

hey. i'm not grounded. people are bitches. work sucks. i'm hurt. nothing new! elmo, call me, i miss you. jaymes, your number doesn't work. call me!

-Arwen

brytfutrinsaylz @ 2004-07-06T12:31:00

2004-07-06T22:32:22Z

chris's hair looks fucking hot! look at her pic!

i like this

2004-07-06T22:21:02Z

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brytfutrinsaylz @ 2004-07-05T20:31:00

2004-07-06T06:31:58Z

I HATE DOCTORS BECAUSE IT'S THEIR FAULT THAT I CAN'T SURF! THEY ALL SHOULD DIE A SLOW AND LINGERING DEATH!

brytfutrinsaylz @ 2004-07-05T13:57:00

2004-07-05T23:57:58Z

this is a question for the volleyball team:

who knows what the schedule is?

i need to know

thanks. <333,

arwen/jay

brytfutrinsaylz @ 2004-07-02T21:00:00

2004-07-03T07:10:07Z

this is just a taste of my new song. tell me what u think.

i'm a good girl/with a good smile/always stays for a while/who can't get over this feeling of you/of what we used to do/of how it used to be/you and me/how we were/how we could be/now i'm a stranger in the dark/just a little medow lark/singing/just singing to herself/you put me on a shelf/and left me there/all alone/to collect dust/the shades remind me/of us

(bridge)just the way/we never knew/where we were going to end up/and we thought/we would have/a future together/and you threw it all away/so now/what do u have to say

(chorus) it's all over now/you threw my love away/and i think about it/every day/how you hurt me/in every single way/you tossed aside/what we could possably be

this so fits me and u

2004-07-03T02:04:02Z

This one goes out to the one I love
This one goes out to the one I've left behind
A simple prop to occupy my time
This one goes out to the one I love

Fire (she's comin' down on her own, now)

This one goes out to the one I love
This one goes out to the one I've left behind
Another prop has occupied my time
This one goes out to the one I love

this one goes out to the one i loved

2004-07-03T02:02:47Z

this is dedicated to lots a people. they know exactly who they are.

Hope dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption
Winding in and winding out
The shine ahead has caught my eye
And roped me in so mesmerizing
It's so hypnotizing
I am captivated
I am

Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
Swear I knew it all along
And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now
The things you swore you saw yourself

So clear
Like the diamond in your ring
Cut to mirror your intention
Oversized and overwhelmed
The shine of which has caught my eye
And rendered me so
Isolated so
Motivated I am
Certain now that I am

Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
Swear I knew it all along
And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now
The things you swore you saw yourself

So tired of the corners of your lips
Part them and feel my finger tips
Trace the moment for forever
Defense is paper thin
Just one touch and I'd be in
Too deep now to ever swim
Against the current

So let me slip away
So let me slip away
So let me slip away
So let me slip against the current
So let me slip away
So let me slip away
So let me slip away
So let me slip away

Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
Swear I knew it all along
And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now
The things you swore you saw yourself

My hope dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption

brytfutrinsaylz @ 2004-07-02T15:41:00

2004-07-03T01:50:00Z

this conversation had made my day.

Ice in the Flame: "fuck this and fuck that fuck this sumtin fuckin sumtin sumtin sumtin!
Ice in the Flame: she dont wanna baby that loox like that
Ice in the Flame: i dont wanna baby who loox like that!
Ice in the Flame: proooobleeeeeeem
Ice in the Flame: prooobleeeeeeeem
Ice in the Flame: u got a problem the problem is u
Ice in the Flame: u got a problem so watcha gona do"
PyroSweetChild8: u have just made my day
Ice in the Flame: lol
Ice in the Flame: i luv that song
Ice in the Flame: YOUR IN THE SEX PISTOLS? I LOVE THE SEX PISTOLS!!!! haha nancy
PyroSweetChild8: u loser
Ice in the Flame: we''e the sex pistols, do yo'selves a favo'
Ice in the Flame: i luv the sex pistols
Ice in the Flame: n ive watched sid n nancy n the filth n the fury 2 many times
Ice in the Flame: lol
Ice in the Flame: police dude: a'e you enjoyin this?
Ice in the Flame: sid: a'e you kiddin?
Ice in the Flame: policedude: where would u like to be right now?
Ice in the Flame: sid: unde' the ground
Ice in the Flame: policedude: se'iously?
Ice in the Flame: sid: o yeah...

tah-leen, u have so made my day! i hate u! jingle fish, jingle fish, jingle all the fish . . .

i'm spinnin out of control

2004-07-03T01:37:42Z

sometimes, life just sucks. and today, life just sucks. seriously, today life just sucks. nothing's going right. i got stung by a jellyfish for god's sake! and from what i've been hearing, mercado can't make up his goddamn mind about volleyball. from what i've heard, he's doing summer leage like he does spring league. anyone want to fill me in on this? please. becuase if i'm not playing, then i'm going to work! i'll just call my boss and say "howard, i'm coming in for work weather u like it or not! bitch!" ok, i won't say exactly that, but it's going to be pretty close! lol! GERR! so, yeah.

I CAN'T TAKE THIS ANYMORE!

dear god this is great! i am happy! and guess what? it's raining!

2004-07-01T19:27:05Z

I'm only happy when it rains
I'm only happy when it's complicated
and though I know you can't appreciate it I'm only happy when it rains
you know I love it when the news is bad
and why it feels so good to feel so sad
I'm only happy when it rains
pour your misery down...pour your misery down on me pour your misery
down...pour your misery down on me
I'm only happy when it rains
I feel good when things are going wrong
I only listen to the sad sad songs
I'm only happy when it rains
I only smile in the dark
my only comfort is the night gone black
I didn't accidentally tell you that
I'm only happy when it rains
you'll get the message by the time I'm through when I complain about
me and you
I'm only happy when it rains
pour your misery down...pour your misery down on me pour your misery
down...pour your misery down on me pour your
misery down...pour your misery down on me pour your misery down
you can keep me company as long as you don't care
I'm only happy when it rains
you wanna hear about my new obsession
I'm riding high upon a deep depression
I'm only happy when it rains
pour some misery down on me

nothing has ever been more true than this . . .

2004-07-01T19:05:33Z

brytfutrinsaylz @ 2004-06-29T14:13:00

2004-06-30T00:14:04Z

You are Insane

i love this song! i love the 80's!

2004-06-29T22:32:42Z

Artist: Journey
Album: Arrival
Title: Loved By You

Every time is like the first time tenderly
Loving you is like breathing spring
Seasons change but your heart beats constantly
Count my blessing every day as you love me
As the sunset disappears across the northern sky
You look for forever in my eyes
All i can say, long as i have a voice
I'll thank god above that i was your first choice

Chorus:

If i should die before i wake
I'll go into the night whispering your name
If lying in your arms is the last thing that i do
At least i know that i'll be loved by you

In about a hundred years from now
When all of my love letters are found
And someone reads these words i've written only meant for you
They'll know how forever came true...

Repeat chorus

Let the years roll on by
These are the best times of my life
I'll just smile when my days are through
Knowing that i've been loved by you
At least i know that i've been loved by you

now time for my songs of the situation . . . read this, you know who u are

2004-06-29T06:59:16Z

This may never start./We could fall apart./And I'd be your memory./Lost your sense of fear./Feelings insincere./Can I be your memory?/So get back, back, back to where we lasted./Just like I imagine./I could never feel this way./So get back, back, back to the disaster./My heart's beating faster./Holding on to feel the same./This may never start./I'll tear us apart./Cannot be your enemy./Losing half a year./Waiting for you here/I'd be your anything./So get back, back, back to where we lasted./Just like I imagine./I could never feel this way./So get back, back, back to the disaster./My heart's beating faster./Holding on to feel the same./This may never start./Tearing out my heart./I'd be your memory./Lost your sense of fear./(I'd be your memory)/Feelings disappear./Can I be your memory?/So get back, back, back to where we lasted./Just like I imagine./I could never feel this way./So get back, back, back to the disaster./My heart's beating faster./Holding on to feel the same./This may never start./We could fall apart/And I'd be your memory./Lost your sense of fear./Feelings insincere./Can I be your memory?

I couldn't tell you why she felt that way,/She felt it everyday./And I couldn't help her,/I just watched her make the same mistakes again./What's wrong, what's wrong now?/Too many, too many problems./Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs./She wants to go home, but nobody's home./I's where she lies, broken inside./With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes./Broken inside./Open your eyes and look outside, find a reasons why./You've been rejected, and now you can't find what you left behind./Be strong, be strong now./Too many, too many problems./Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs./She wants to go home, but nobody's home./It's where she lies, broken inside./With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes./Broken inside./Her feelings she hides./Her dreams she can't find./She's losing her mind./She's fallen behind./She can't find her place./She's losing her faith./She's fallen from grace./She's all over the place./Yeah,oh/She wants to go home, but nobody's home./It's where she lies, broken inside./With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes./Broken inside./She's lost inside, lost inside...oh oh yeah/She's lost inside, lost inside...oh oh yeah

it was a beautiful let down/when i crashed and burned/when i found myself alone unknown and hurt/it was a beautiful letdown/the day i knew/that all the riches this world had to offer me/would never do/in a world full of bitter pain and bitter doubt/i was trying so hard to fit in, fit in,/until i found out/i don't belong here/i don't belong here/i will carry your cross and your song/but i don't belong/it was a beautiful letdown/when you found me here/yeah for once in a blue moon i see everything clear/i'll be your beautiful letdown/thats what i've ever been/and even if it costs my soul/i'll sing for free/we still chasin our tails in the rising time/in our dark third planet/when no one fights and no one's one/see i don't belong here/i will carry your cross and your song/but i don't belong here/i'm gonna set sight and set sail for the kingdom come/kingdom come/Your kingdom come/won't you let me down yeah/let my foolish proud/forever let me down/easy living not much left for pain/easy dieing hey they're just abou the same/won't you please take me off your list/easy living please come on and let me down/we are a beautiful let down,/painfully uncool,/the church of the dropouts/and loosers and sinners and failures and the fools/oh what a beautiful let down/all resolved in the womb/and join us He wants you too/I don't belong here/I don't belong here/I don't belong here/Feels like I don't belong here/Let me down/Let me down/Feels like I'm let down/Let me down./Cuz I don't belong here/Please/Won't you let me down?

The stars will cry/The blackest tears tonight/And this is the moment that I live for/I can smell the ocean air/And here I am/Pouring my heart onto these rooftops/Just a ghost to the world/That's exactly/Exactly what I need/From up here the city lights burn/Like a thousand miles of fire/And I'm here to sing this anthem/Of our dying day/For a second I wish the tide/Would swallow every inch of this city/As you gasp for air tonight/I'd scream this song right in your face/If you were here/I swear I won't miss a beat/Cause I never/Never have before/From up here the city lights burn/Like a thousand miles of fire/And I'm here to sing this anthem/Of our dying day/Of our dying day/Of our dying day/Of our dying!!!/For a second I wish the tide/Would swallow every inch of this city/And you gasp for air tonight!!/From up here the city lights burn/Like a thousand miles of fire/And I'm here to sing this anthem/Of our dying day/From up here the city lights burn/Like a thousand miles of fire/And I'm here to sing this anthem/Of our dying day/From up here the city lights burn/Like a thousand miles of fire/And I'm here to sing this anthem/Of our dying day/Our dying day/Of our dying!!!

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2004-06-28T19:39:06Z

it feels like i've lost my best friend, but i haven't. it feels like i've lost my everything, but i haven't. i feel like i have no reason for living, that's because i don't. i need to be surrounded by my friends, but i don't have many out here that i can trust. some people will see what i'm getting at here. it's not just the situation, it's the emotion of the people in the situation. this time, the situation isn't in my favor and this time, i can't win. i have lost a lot because of this situation. now i know how elmo feels. i really do. it's a knowing of you haven't lost the person forever, it's just the feeling of it. it's all about feeling, never about knowing. with some people, their heart is more powerful than their brains. that's how it is for me. my emotions always are more powerful than my thoughts. my emotions fuel my thoughts. that's why i make it a point to have my thoughts spoken. showing my emotions isn't something that most people enjoy, so i make my emotions show when i'm trying to make a point. unless you have a strong point and you want everybody to know where you & your point stand, then why even try to make a point? that's how i look at it. unless you want it known, why try to make a point of it. and if you want it to be made, then your point needs to be "strong". and if your point is "strong", than there should be emotion in it. usually when a good point is made, there is emotion behind it. i have a lot of emotions running through me right now, so here's the one point that i want to make: age is just a number . . . love knows no age . . . it's only 3 years . . . fuck what my parents have to say. . . you're not for them to like, you're for me to like . . . i love you no matter what . . . when will i finally get it through your heads!?!?! now, as everyone doesn't know, i'd just like to varify that those points and emotions are directed towards various people. they know who they are! well, i've said all that i want to say. i'm making this entry public, because this is a point that i want the world to know!

brytfutrinsaylz @ 2004-06-22T17:13:00

2004-06-23T03:18:18Z

ok, let me put you in check.
you never loved me. you don't even know who the hell i am. you don't know a damn thing about me. if you did, then maybe i could understand, but you don't so therefore, i don't. get a fucking grip. maybe this is the product of my pms and the fact that you just don't know me. so, how does love feel? tell me. i beg of you to tell me how love feels. i know how love feels. so, if you can give me a believeable answer to what love is, then we can talk. jesus, you act like you've known me for all of my life. you've known me for less than a month and you're already saying that you're my one and only. WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WIHT YOU?!?!?! my god. as of now, i just think that you should let me think and don't try to contact me!

brytfutrinsaylz @ 2004-06-21T17:17:00

2004-06-22T03:19:24Z

ok, hey. if there's anybody out there who really loves me, this is an lj entry for you. yellowcard is going to be on pepsi SMASH on thursday at 8 pm/7 central on the WB. now, i would love to watch it, but the problem is i'm working. if you love me, it would be really cool if you could maybe record it for me. i will love you forever! thanks!
<3,
Arwen

brytfutrinsaylz @ 2004-06-21T16:33:00

2004-06-22T02:36:02Z

brytfutrinsaylz is poisonous! Induce vomitting if ingested.

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POISON

captured beauty.

2004-06-21T21:31:12Z

brytfutrinsaylz @ 2004-06-20T06:52:00

2004-06-20T16:53:01Z

this is a friends only journal! yeah! comment if you want to be added. if i like you, i'll add you. if i don't like you, then you're shit out of luck! ha!